If you were reading my post below after i headed for a shower it really got me thinking again. I broke down and cried; what have i been doing with my life? Tears still remain as i wrote this down.

One of my friend’s dad has just passed away, the feeling of losing the one you hold onto dearly is a pain so painful that no word can describe it.  After reflecting on how i treated my friends today, i felt like a jerk. It was probably the emotion- guilt. It really hit me that what if that person were to die today, those hurtful comments could have haunted me for a lifetime, i would have yearned for her forgiveness but like they always say its sometimes just too late.

Thoughts of my loved ones, friends were churning in my head as i sat in the seat of the toilet bowl, thoughts of how did i treat them, if they were to die today, would i be able to say “yes i’ve been a great friend to them” or “yes i’ve been a great son” to my parents. I immediately called my mum to hear her voice, tears tickled my cheeks.

I guess this is another changing point in my life. I shall always remember this day. And to all my friends, family, brothers, classmates however you know me, if you happen to read this, yes i love you all, i’ll never forsake you guys for anything in the world, without you guys i am nothing.