July 2008


We hear this alot, everywhere you go people are talking about having potential to do something but do we know what potential really is? Potential is derieved from the word potent, which means powerful. So potential literally means power.

Power that is never excercised. Stregth that is never released. Success that is never used. Talents that is hidden away. Capabilities that lies dormant inside you. Potential is unlimited.

Potential is all that you can do, but not yet done; how far you can reach, but not yet reach; what you can accomplish but not yet accomplish; it is all that you can be, but not yet become. 

The greatest tragedy in life is not death, but a life that never realises its full potential.

I am more than what i have done.

We barely had 5 bucks in our pockets, yet we were happy

I cant be the photographer yet in the picture, but yet, i saw myself in the view finder.

As I looked on, closer, i found myself to be focusing, closer;

Yes it was me, I was in the photo, yet im the photographer

At your word Lord,

I recieve my,

faith to walk,

the ocean’s deep

Though the vision’s not here yet, but i know what my purpose is

According to my faith, let it be to me.

Joy to the world! The Lord has come! It is the time of the year for photos again!

As Phua would say check out the dopeness of the gear luh! Hmmm i have 1 Camera, actually 2 if you count my digital compact, 3 lenses now, bought a 28mm f2.8 lens today for $25 only! condition MINT, 1 flash which i’m not using at all, 2 tripods, 1 courtesy of Phua, lovely drybox and the sexy lowepro bag. Wooo my life looks so bright now heh!

Looking forward for more great photos to come :)

At your word Lord, i receive the faith to walk the ocean’s deep

Ever you guys heard this phrase “only you can make yourself happy” ? Seriously if you take awhile to work those brain cells, its true! Even if the whole world tries to make you happy, shower you with the desires of your heart, give you all the love you would ever need, if we’re still negative in thinking, skeptical in thinking, we won’t even feel happy at all. From this i can safely conclude and reaffirm the title; “I think; therefore, I am” – it all begins in the head.

A recent survey by the American Psychological Association has revealed that the most important factor to happiness, as defined by most Americans, is self-esteem. Feelings that were associated with high self-esteem were feelings of self-competency and independence. Therefore I would like to strongly highlight the importance of self-esteem and the above title.

I’m very sure most of you guys have sometimes in your life thought to yourself “Wow that was stupid”. Ok that voice was what I would call it the “judgemental internal voice”. Everyone will have this little voice in your head and its there to judge you in the things you do; lets take a scenario of a runner coming in second; the runner could say to himself these things “That was alright at least i came in second”- clearly showing that his internal voice is telling him to be complacent, “Damned why dint i run faster”- he’s putting the blame on himself and lastly “I can do better the next time”- it shows his optimism. See what and how your judgemental voice directly coincides with the way you think? Even the words you speak in your mind are important!

Sometimes the judgemental voice insides us will get critical, often happens when we are unable to meet the standards set by the media or other strong influences such as friends, they are powerful and can sway the way we think very easily when we have low self-esteem. However, our judgemental voice serves to help us avoid potential failure or rejection. It will prevent us from doing things that would result in akward and uncomfortable situations. This is the commonly identified as the “you can’t do it” voice, one of the key reasons to low self-esteem.

But the good news is that it is entirely possible to maintain a healthy self-esteem even when we’re protecting ourselves. For example, you could place less importance on the opinion other’s have on you or just emphasize on the positive or you could just ignore that voice. It is very important that when we make these judgement in our heads that we should also, and always, listen more to the rational part of ourselves so that we can easily adjust to any unreasonable critism.

Self-esteem is something that can be decerned easily. A positive person with high self-esteem would more likely be capable than another person, even of the same calibre, because of high self-esteem, the positiive guy would more likely able to unlesh his potential as he would have the guts to explore further than a person who is insecure and chooses to stay in his comfort zone. However there will always be both sides to the coin, a negative self-esteem could also encourage change, hard work, personal growth and success but ultimately this negative self-esteem would change into a positive one.

You are responsible for yourself.

One thing, i ask.

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I’ve always been a government-basher, always talking about how screwed up Singapore is with their systems and everything else well let’s talk about the one of the most government fueled aspect- Education standing at S$6.966 Billion much more than millitary defences. Clearly Singapore has placed education as an important aspect of society development.

Let’s take a look at the levels of education in singapore- Primary(PSLE), Secondary(O levels), Pre-univerisity(A levels), Diploma and vocational (various diplomas), technical education( National ITE cert) of which students are required by the government to complete secondary school, and has a choice whether to move on to further education or not.

Singapore adopted the streaming system althoug it has been said to be abolished, the streaming system still stands till this very day however unspoken and unwritten. Students are still being put into classes according to their so-called “ability to learn” so that it suits their “learning paces”. This might be true for some students are slower learnings than others but heck? Since they said streaming system was abolished to prevent branding and labeling why is it so that it is still happening? Are they trying to fool themselves or the idiots who fail to see it? So yeah, nice going Singapore, labeling and branding are still going on right in my backyard and i can just see thousands of potential talents being filtered out as the otherwise. During my era, we were filtered when we were 10, 12, 14, 16(or17) in primary and secondary education; i can just imagine the number of actually-smart-but-playful students labeled as “stupid” at a young age. These students will then be unable to realise their full potential and will be conformed to the system to whatever the system thinks they belong but infact, the system is probabbly wrong all the time. This is the result of the national examinations, being wholly relied on grades and acadamic results. Its a world of alphaberts and numericals.

So what do they test you during the examinations? Well for all i can remember it could be like: “what is the squareroot of 9?” where the questions are usually to test the rememberence of the fomula and their right application; like-wise every examination tests the application of the fomula and if you have remembered their fomula. Wait wait wait, hang on a second, arn’t the aims of exams to test students on their understanding and application? So Singapore has made it so where students just simply come with a full stomach of facts and spot-the-similarities-to-apply-facts system then vomit them out on the examination papers; so what does that mean? It has turned into a memorising facts session; students these days are made to write facts over and over again until they have it at the back of their heads and ever ready to throw at the test papers. Where is the understanding and all that bullcrap? Has examinations lost their aim and their desired results?

Okay so its so technical and stuff lets talk about where the money of the tax payers are going. Singapore education system offers bursaries and monetary rewards to the top 95-percentile of a cohort. Ok bursaries first, it is a grant of up to 80% of tuition fees; looking at polytechnic education where tuition fees hit sky high at S$13k per semestar, 80% is indeed a heavy load off the our parent’s pockets but should’nt they not revise their percentile to suit every family’s needs? 80% off S$13k is still S$2k plus does it weigh evenly between 2 family with annual income of S$20k and S$400k ? You don’t need to be a mathamatician to figure out the maths there; Has taxes lost it’s purpose as to devide the country’s wealth among its people? Same thing goes for monetary rewards for good results, it should have been revised to meet family’s needs, why make someone whose already rich, richer? and how will, by giving more money to someone who has abundance, motivate him or her to study more? Does’nt it entirely defeats the purpose and create more discords among the social classes?

I’ll keep this short and sweet, Singapore’s education system is really a waste of tax payer’s money and has caused the ‘death” of dreams and talents of many capable people personally i graduated from a dropout school and i had personally witness this myself; think again when you go to work the next time, how does memorising facts and vomiting them out help your boss solve their problems? The work force needs problem solvers not some nerd who is able to memorise the entire wikipedia. Nuff said.

Comments please :)

Blame- Responsiblity that should have been on you but you push it to others

Accent- the way how funny people speak

Battle- War or usually used to dscribe a fight between two ladies

Enough- Word used by woman to end a conversation when they can’t overpower you in an arguement used in conjunction with the word “fine”.

Quota- Something meant to be met but in reality never will be

Stimulate- Step sio!

Configuration- a 10 miniute proceedure where technicians do something to your laptop but really nothing to make you pay them

Particle- A word never used to singleout what its meant to single out eg. a particle of hydrogen

Cricket- A game that was never popular because it was mainly played by black people

Assign- A task given to someone to make him or her feel obligated to finish it

Radiation- One of the things responsible for killing sperms

Speaking- Usually a monolouge unless you’re with a close friend :)

Spool- no idea what this is

Dragon- Snake and lizard-like thing with wings, usually red and breaths fire. Rachel thinks its real

Infection- How diseases are being passed or how bad habits are being passed.

Operation- The opening and closing of a body to fix whatever that’s wrong with it

Closure- Something girls do to express their feelings

Offensive- Something really provoking eg. racism

Statement- A speech goverment officals give to cover up the truth

Scratching- Something girls do when no other guys are watching

Compulsion- One of the many methodsthat manipulative girls uses to get the whatever they want

All words randomly generated by http://watchout4snakes.com/creativitytools/RandomWord/RandomWordPlus.aspx the random word generator

I was watching Hellboy (not 2 sadly) when i felt this sudden urge to grab my bible; i took it out into the living room, it opened to this passage (i din’t turn the pages) John 14:12-14, first thing that caught my eye.

12 “Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father. 13 And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14 If you ask anything in My name, I will do it.

God works through people; He is in us. Ask and you’ll recieve, whats more won’t God, the creator, give to us when he has already given us His Son? Dream big Irwin, dream big. Ok back to Hellboy!

Oh i found out the meaning of my name too Irwin = sea lover, origin Anglo-Saxo. Mmmmm surprisingly accurate, i love the sea! anyway for those who want to find out the meaning of your name head down to www.zelo.com.

Epic day today, went to shop around bugis, ended up in Sungei road with some awesome stuff, interesting people there, gota visit there someday again, oh oh i got a mega zoom lens there; for only 30 bucks. Epic win for my Canon FTb. Wandered around till i ended up in Kallang river, took a few nice shots there :) Wandered my way to Lavender MRT and caught the train to church.

Service was great, the message was good, as usual the church is really stired up by the word and encouraged to pray and seek the Lord even more. Unique cellgroup fellowship today, with Rico, Leonard, Leonard and Mel; Mel left early though and fellowship turned to guitar playing and lessons.

Ok main thing was on the way home i was reading the bible on the bus, ( side track: there was this guy right beside me who din’t wash his hair or something and it really stinked- people should really learn how to use water to bath *rant* ) on Jesus’ crucification. Jesus knew who he was and yet stayed on the cross for us, dispite being mocked at and challenged, Jesus was secured about his identity. We should be like Jesus, secure in his own identity, we need not prove to others when challenged, be firm and have self-assurence, for with Christ, all things are possible and if He is for me, no one can be agianst me.

I’m the majority even when the world is on the other side, for God is with me.

Check out my rig now :D omg sexiness!!!

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