It’s been more than a year; since i’ve made another dicision, im glad that now im still stuck in the contract i made with myself.
Looking in the mirror, i feel like im not who i am. Sometimes i feel so fake, i’m becoming someone im not. Whatever happened to the insecurities? Whatever happened to the self-centredness? Whatever happened to my addictions? It just does’nt seem right sometimes, i don’t feel like myself anymore. But hey is’nt life a whole lot brighter now? So why am i feeling this way?
After a long day, i’ve come to a conclusion: change is never comfortable. Breaking boundries, stepping out of your comfort zone, metamorphasis; these are what i’ve been going through. Im not who i was.
Everything started out with this friendship; this friendship probably is the trigger that ignited me. He was a friend in every way, he was a friend every day. He was the friend that turned me around.
Turning back i don’t see myself, at all. More than what i am.
Howdy wordpress readers! woahkay you gota start bugging me to start writing again alright? i have like 1001 essays in mind (actually 5) but too lazy to write soooooooooooooo if you want to see them here you can write in to me and attach your bank account number with the pin and i’ll gladly update for your sake hahaha!
anyway it’s been a great day at mel’s picture’s are up on facebook and ill link them here as soon as i get all of them done! :)
cheers and have a great week ahead guys :)
Once in a long while, i’ll be stuck outside my house waiting for someone to save me from the wait that seems forever and today was one of the days. Stupid habbit not to bring keys out. gahhhh.
So i was outside for 5 hours, or a tad bit more than 5 hours and i realised a couple of things:
1. My hands are not long enough to reach the door when my gates are closed
2. I’ve taken the usual toilet for granted
3. I can never break into my own home
4. My neighbors are not friendly when they see me stuck outside the house (my old neighbors used to invite me over to their houses last time)
5. Children church teachers visit people at night
6. Always bring those annoying keys
Which in turned made me realise after posting this that we should always take a step back from our busy lives to think about stuff, reflect on things and not just going about doing things without knowing. Bored to the core, I had no choice but to keep that brain of mine alive, and im so glad actually, recently i’ve been so lazy and going off track in many things; can’t wait for the next time to set some time aside for some quiet time again but not at my doorstep the next time, please.
Okay wordpress readers, its december and Christmas is around the corner, so Merry Christmas! and have a wonderful holiday :)
